My Story

This blog is a secret.
The fact that it's on the Internet is a little contradictory to that last statement, but this blog is, in fact, a secret from my friends and family.

I plan to more honest than I have ever been about my physical state here, on this blog, which means posting unflattering "before" (i.e., current) photos, my true weight (i.e., not what I put on my license), and real reasons why I've never taken responsibility for being "pleasantly plump" (morbidly obese).

I also wish to bring awareness to the fact that "morbidly obese" while a very extreme physical state to be in is not equal to that guy who needed a crane to leave the house...

It's me.

I think those who are not obese don't understand that someone my size is the face of morbid obesity. I'm big and unhealthy but I am fully functional as a human being (though I won't be winning any races just yet).
I've included most recent photos of myself. This is me at 298 lbs (no, it's not 300, I'm not in denial...but I also don't relish breaking 300 and luckily I haven't yet):

I untagged a few of these on Facebook because I was so embarassed of my size especially compared to my two best friends.

I also almost couldn't buckle the seatbelt on our first United flight out to North Carolina because I was too big. I was mortified when Sarah sweetly offered to help.

Anyone in my position has a hundred stories, thousands of reasons to be motivated, but I also believe there are many out there who understand the difficulty of becoming healthy. Especially if, like me, you've been consistently heavy your entire life.

In my next post, I will be outlining my goals followed by another post that states my purpose. Also, I will lay out, more or less, my plan (kind of making this up as I go) to change who I am physically. I hope that this blog will hold me accountable to becoming more healthy and, ultimately, encourage others who, like me, feel hopeless and helpless to change how they look, feel, and move.