Jordan joined the Y! I am like a kid at Christmas! I can't believe what an amazing guy I date. I told Jordan the other night that I was taking on this new lifestyle for him and for us. I explained that I wanted to be healthier so I didn't have to opt out of physical activities with him and our friends (should one of our pals spontaneously wish to white water raft or go hiking...in Nebraska), so I'd have more energy on the whole, and some obvious benefits that could be fun way down the road if we "stay friends" (yoga anyone?).
Also, I have a fun new system I picked up on Pinterest where every time I hit the gym I get to add a dollar to a jar for whatever I want. I think it'd be killer to save up for a fun physical adventure with Jordan or friends. Camping, skiing, etc. once I get into enough shape to enjoy/keep up. As of today, I've got a whopping $4. (I'm going to have to get busy.)
5.15.2012
Personal Trainer First Consultation
Had my consultation with Ross last Monday and again last night. I presented him with LOADS of questions every one of which he answered with patience and thoroughness. I so appreciated him understanding that I wasn't stalling but really needed to know some things first, for example:
Is my weight-loss goal feasible? My fitness goal? How do I know when I'm pushing myself too far? And not to count my chickens before they hatch, but what if I lose a bunch of weight; will I have excess skin? Will I lose it all just to end up under the knife like those poor people on The Biggest Loser?
(By the way, the answers to these were "absolutely," "absolutely," and "not if you lose it healthily and gradually enough."
I got reweighed since my first weigh in with Ross and I am at my all-time heaviest at 303 lbs. I can't believe I broke 300 but I have to say that I'm truly not broken up about it. I'm so confident that I'm on my way to something good here that I'm just not upset. I knew I'd been WAY overeating and under moving so it's not a shock. Also, I am dating a wonderful man who accepts me for exactly the size I am and it both makes me feel beautiful the way I am AND motivates me to be the very best I can be for him. Hence, new lifestyle!
After the consultation Ross gave me just a general number of times to be at the gym and how much lifting and cardio to do while he worked on a customized plan for me for the next week. My own workouts last week went like this:
Is my weight-loss goal feasible? My fitness goal? How do I know when I'm pushing myself too far? And not to count my chickens before they hatch, but what if I lose a bunch of weight; will I have excess skin? Will I lose it all just to end up under the knife like those poor people on The Biggest Loser?
(By the way, the answers to these were "absolutely," "absolutely," and "not if you lose it healthily and gradually enough."
I got reweighed since my first weigh in with Ross and I am at my all-time heaviest at 303 lbs. I can't believe I broke 300 but I have to say that I'm truly not broken up about it. I'm so confident that I'm on my way to something good here that I'm just not upset. I knew I'd been WAY overeating and under moving so it's not a shock. Also, I am dating a wonderful man who accepts me for exactly the size I am and it both makes me feel beautiful the way I am AND motivates me to be the very best I can be for him. Hence, new lifestyle!
After the consultation Ross gave me just a general number of times to be at the gym and how much lifting and cardio to do while he worked on a customized plan for me for the next week. My own workouts last week went like this:
- Precor (level 10) for 30 minutes and lifting (three arm lifts (three sets of 12) and three legs (three sets of 12))
- Zumba (in a bridesmaid dress—our instructor is moving to Denver to get married and live with her hubby there so we celebrated by dressing up) and lifting (" ")
- Spinning class on Saturday—my butt hurt SO MUCH. This class was one of the most physically grueling things I've ever done. I actually started crying during the song "If I Die Young" because I thought I was going to die young on that stationary bike (you think I'm kidding? this was the first time ever that a workout was so hard I cried).
5.07.2012
Step 1: YMCA Personal Trainer
$480 later, I have employed the good tutilage of Ross, a beefy, 5'5'', Jesus-look-alike at the Y. He did my physical assessment (the results basically showed that I should've been dead three years ago...)
(Okay, not really, but let's just say I'm no Olympian.)
I have my first appointment with him this afternoon and have had nervous poops all weekend and today. I've been trying to pinpoint what exactly I'm so afraid of and I think it boils down to these: 1) being judged, 2) being misunderstood (e.g., my activity being perceived as laziness instead of sheer inability, or on the opposite end of the spectrum, not being challenged enough and underestimated), and 3) having the sinking feeling that I'm beginning something I will ultimately fail at.
5:00 p.m. CST things are going to get real. I'll let you know how it goes!
(Okay, not really, but let's just say I'm no Olympian.)
I have my first appointment with him this afternoon and have had nervous poops all weekend and today. I've been trying to pinpoint what exactly I'm so afraid of and I think it boils down to these: 1) being judged, 2) being misunderstood (e.g., my activity being perceived as laziness instead of sheer inability, or on the opposite end of the spectrum, not being challenged enough and underestimated), and 3) having the sinking feeling that I'm beginning something I will ultimately fail at.
5:00 p.m. CST things are going to get real. I'll let you know how it goes!
4.20.2012
The Goals
WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL: Weigh 240 by January 1, 2013.
That's 58 lbs. in 36 weeks, so that's 1.6 lbs. a week.
FITNESS GOAL: Run a 5k by October (doesn't have to be fast, but it has to be running)
EATING GOAL: Simple, EAT MORE PLANTS, RECORD WHAT GOES INTO MY BODY, & HYDRATE, adhering to MyFitnessPal's daily limits for my diet.
I'll elaborate on how this is all going to happen soon but for now, this is the 20,000-foot view of what I want to accomplish.
This is going to take a lot of work.
That's 58 lbs. in 36 weeks, so that's 1.6 lbs. a week.
FITNESS GOAL: Run a 5k by October (doesn't have to be fast, but it has to be running)
EATING GOAL: Simple, EAT MORE PLANTS, RECORD WHAT GOES INTO MY BODY, & HYDRATE, adhering to MyFitnessPal's daily limits for my diet.
I'll elaborate on how this is all going to happen soon but for now, this is the 20,000-foot view of what I want to accomplish.
This is going to take a lot of work.
4.19.2012
My Story
This blog is a secret.
The fact that it's on the Internet is a little contradictory to that last statement, but this blog is, in fact, a secret from my friends and family.
I plan to more honest than I have ever been about my physical state here, on this blog, which means posting unflattering "before" (i.e., current) photos, my true weight (i.e., not what I put on my license), and real reasons why I've never taken responsibility for being "pleasantly plump" (morbidly obese).
I also wish to bring awareness to the fact that "morbidly obese" while a very extreme physical state to be in is not equal to that guy who needed a crane to leave the house...
It's me.
I think those who are not obese don't understand that someone my size is the face of morbid obesity. I'm big and unhealthy but I am fully functional as a human being (though I won't be winning any races just yet).
I've included most recent photos of myself. This is me at 298 lbs (no, it's not 300, I'm not in denial...but I also don't relish breaking 300 and luckily I haven't yet):
I untagged a few of these on Facebook because I was so embarassed of my size especially compared to my two best friends.
I also almost couldn't buckle the seatbelt on our first United flight out to North Carolina because I was too big. I was mortified when Sarah sweetly offered to help.
Anyone in my position has a hundred stories, thousands of reasons to be motivated, but I also believe there are many out there who understand the difficulty of becoming healthy. Especially if, like me, you've been consistently heavy your entire life.
In my next post, I will be outlining my goals followed by another post that states my purpose. Also, I will lay out, more or less, my plan (kind of making this up as I go) to change who I am physically. I hope that this blog will hold me accountable to becoming more healthy and, ultimately, encourage others who, like me, feel hopeless and helpless to change how they look, feel, and move.
The fact that it's on the Internet is a little contradictory to that last statement, but this blog is, in fact, a secret from my friends and family.
I plan to more honest than I have ever been about my physical state here, on this blog, which means posting unflattering "before" (i.e., current) photos, my true weight (i.e., not what I put on my license), and real reasons why I've never taken responsibility for being "pleasantly plump" (morbidly obese).
I also wish to bring awareness to the fact that "morbidly obese" while a very extreme physical state to be in is not equal to that guy who needed a crane to leave the house...
It's me.
I think those who are not obese don't understand that someone my size is the face of morbid obesity. I'm big and unhealthy but I am fully functional as a human being (though I won't be winning any races just yet).
I've included most recent photos of myself. This is me at 298 lbs (no, it's not 300, I'm not in denial...but I also don't relish breaking 300 and luckily I haven't yet):
I untagged a few of these on Facebook because I was so embarassed of my size especially compared to my two best friends.
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I also almost couldn't buckle the seatbelt on our first United flight out to North Carolina because I was too big. I was mortified when Sarah sweetly offered to help. Anyone in my position has a hundred stories, thousands of reasons to be motivated, but I also believe there are many out there who understand the difficulty of becoming healthy. Especially if, like me, you've been consistently heavy your entire life.
In my next post, I will be outlining my goals followed by another post that states my purpose. Also, I will lay out, more or less, my plan (kind of making this up as I go) to change who I am physically. I hope that this blog will hold me accountable to becoming more healthy and, ultimately, encourage others who, like me, feel hopeless and helpless to change how they look, feel, and move.
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